I usually don’t know what I’m going to write when I start a
blog entry, and today is no exception, but I do know we are like a stagnant pool shoved
over its banks by a flash flood from the storm up stream. Obstructions that had us immobilized are suddenly floating down a new stream. Sometimes I forget that many of my problems are the result of low expectations.
A long time ago, I learned to ask for
little, expect little, and deny dissatisfaction with the way this turns
out. The past week has crammed a year’s worth of action and a lot of reminding into
a few days. The secret is a new energy entering our life in the person of Milda
Vaivada who has been staying with us while she searches for her own place in
Taos.
Milda and PQ on the Trail |
I’ve been troubled by how I was letting myself slip into
humdrumness, but felt stymied. The truth is I was bored with Taos and my life. The
post office, Walmart, the grocery stores and occasional visits with friends was
about the extent of our action. I didn’t care to walk in this neighborhood,
which I don’t fancy beyond our pleasant little yard, and the rest was getting
harder to see with fresh eyes. Eyes can be like weathered glass windows gradually
clouded in grey film over time. PQ and I
were in the doldrums waiting for a chance breeze to fill our sails. Worst of all was our depleted imagination. We
both wanted to paint again but were intimidated by a garage full of stuff. This
stuff came from mom’s house, our Arizona house, and the recent rental of the
reservation house and seemed to be breeding when we weren’t looking. Painting
in the dining room even with a drop cloth resulted in splatters of paint in
places we (read I) don’t want paint to be.
Our new friend has all the exhilaration of someone discovering a new planet and it is infectious. This
was a dry summer and suddenly the monsoon rescued us all from mummification. I don’t
believe in coincidences, so an energy block must have lifted through all dimensions. With our friend’s assistance, we have a new
storage space at Hinds and Hinds and the content of the garage is moving out to
make space for art. This is a longtime fantasy/wish. Besides, we are getting in
shape lifting all those boxes. Even PQ seems to be thriving with the extra
effort. I think it’s a subtle sin yet very dangerous to be stymied by something
as simple as a garage full of cluttered resources rendered demonic by their
bulk.
I generally receive intuitive information on upcoming
changes, but my humdrum Baptist upbringing often clouds intuition with doubt. In
addition, there is an ego component to this.
I hedge on taking a chance in believing my intuition just in case I’m deplorably
wrong. Honestly, I promise I’m working on this silly attitude. PQ doesn’t have this hang-up. For $70 a
month, which we didn’t have last month, the space problem was solved, and
taking that chance has resulted in seeding several more income upgrades.
Getting one major obstacle out of the way miraculously opens the gate for everything
backed up behind the dam. Now here come
the rapids. But that'S OK, a few days of
rest and we can get back on the boat.
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