Who are we? What is the background of our existence? Now and
then, I get a lightning flash of insight into a much greater reality than this
world compounded of one day after another, one year after another. I’ve come to
believe that there are many strata of our being that simply don’t fit within the common powers of perception. Then,
perhaps in the natural sequence of perceptual progression, all but a few enlightened
beings have yet to awaken to that level of experience. Either way, I’ve come to
the conclusion that we have deep roots extending both above and below all known
definitions of being human.
Like snowflakes, each being has a unique design while still following
its archetypal pattern. This is the essence of creation in motion, and with
it the inevitability of destruction for each individual expression of that
greater pattern. We naively believe we are autonomous beings that belong only
to ourselves. Yet, we are more like a nerve ending of the collective human
body. We carry the responses of our ancestors and make way for the experiences
of our descendants but, for now, I want to find the entrance to the previously
unknown layer of reality that brought me to the Black smoke Beings.
Shadow People, or Black Smoke Beings, in my experience are
not truly ghosts. They may in fact be a creation of certain states of negative
consciousness. Consider the possibility that we actually are literally co-creators
of our world. In this proposal, these strange entities eventually take on a rudimentary
consciousness as well as an independent state of being. However, they live by energy
generated with negative emotions, especially fear, anger and suspicion. Although
I really don’t know how they are born, or where they come from, I clearly saw
them, and for a moment read their minds and recognized their influence for
generations back. Their situation is secondary.
They do not have a truly independent existence but require the
vibrational energy of negative human emotions for sustenance.
I suspect that we seriously underestimate our powers and
thus our responsibility as co-creators. We put god outside of ourselves and beg “him”
to fix unfortunate situations or make our hopes come to fruition. Frequently,
our prayers are answered, yet in a manner our ego identity fails to recognize.
Most of us occasionally are aware that we may be more than our personality or
the states of consciousness that we include in our ego package but we seldom
extend this vague awareness beyond our habitual identity nor any hoped for
improvement in that identity.
I’m not suggesting such experiences as the Black Smoke
Beings are merely figments of our imagination. The power and essence of emotion
is considerably underestimated. It seems to me, that emotion is a many layered creative
power source. We humans are in a sense conduits of power from more than the
familiar four dimensions. In the
esoteric world, there is above and below and all directions emanate from one
point as powerful as an atomic reaction, the elusive now. Yet, we are also very suggestible and much of our interpretation of reality is due to unconsciously
assimilated assumptions about being human, living on this planet and how
reality works. Regrettably, we discard unfamiliar or socially unpopular states
of perception automatically and habitually, before they creep all the way to the
remote borders of consciousness. This
leaves our neglected powers stalking in the dark woods outside our seemingly
safe doors.
Consider the possibility, that there are powers that would
prefer that we never awaken to our co-creative powers. The lower limits of
consciousness often are sustained by traditional Religions in contrast to a
less culturally biased spirituality. Now consider that religion is only one of
many reality factories. For instance, Scientific Materialism is the official
orthodoxy of this time in history.
During the time that I encountered the Black Smoke Beings, I
also experienced strange phenomena in the form of large pale yellow flying
insects similar to dragonflies circling my living room. I could see them even
though I couldn’t open my eyes or move. Later black snakes ascended between the
cracks in the wooden floor of my old adobe. I know this comes off as literally
crazy stuff, but it never affected my ordinary world, the so-called world of
socially agreed upon reality. Interestingly, my cats also saw these entities, watched with fascination and curiosity but did not behave as if threatened.
As odd as it may sound, I recognized these events as messages
from forgotten dimensions and guides to powers I hadn’t encountered before. I
also suspected witchcraft for some of these experiences. There are many so I
won’t attempt to explain all, but I was living in psychically close contact
with a medicine man from the Pueblo while naively attempting to help his
rebellious son understand the importance of his own path to medicine. It is
important to keep in mind that when relating to any other dimensional
consciousness there is both light and dark. There are those who help us attain a
more comprehensive consciousness in contrast to those who intend to scare us into submission
or get rid of us. To obscure matters, the dark types often deceptively present
themselves as helpful or neutral.
As a working concept, I have come to see this part of my
personal history as an opening to a larger viewpoint. I will compare it to
viewing one’s life and environment from the highest hill in the neighborhood.
There are always going to be taller hills, then mountains, and eventually the
limitless space above all mountains, but it’s best to take on larger realities
in steps. I no longer consider it my business to impress others with the
importance of fulfilling their “destiny.” It is impossible to know what someone’s
personal tolerance to an expanded perception might be. Each being has a unique
pathway through a forest of distortions. At an age when many people consider
their life’s work complete, I am barely identifying the obstructions to my
journey up the next mountain. I believe this is the weakness that made me
vulnerable to “psychic attack.” It was
not a bad thing. When I acknowledge that there is both dark and light as we
encounter new dimensions, I want to make it clear that they are working in
tandem. It’s not about judging the experience one over the other.
I believe that the greatest weakness we have as a society in
this time / space, is the belief that one can make great strides in one
direction without activating its counter direction. Have you noticed that great
breakthroughs in medicine within a few years are countered with the negative
side effects and frequently stimulate the evolution of a more powerful virus?
Last night I watched a documentary on nuclear power. It is a
solution to many environmental problems and to the eventual cessation of the
use of fossil fuels altogether, but no one knows how safely to dispose of
nuclear waste and it wasn’t considered in that original elation of discovery.
In 20,000 years will disposal instructions still be decipherable by our descendants. Even as individuals, we often solve a problem,
sigh with relief and satisfaction and then discover a bit later that we have
unleashed a greater problem. Alas, the evolution
of our world seems to exist under the tragic tutelage of pain heartache and
destruction.
Now, I have reached the edge of a mental precipice that is
too sheer to descend and too wide to jump in my present mental capacity. I think I’ll make some brownies because I have
a chocolate craving for the second day in a row. I need to restore a simple
earthly bond.
