Wednesday, January 18, 2017


Who are we? What is the background of our existence? Now and then, I get a lightning flash of insight into a much greater reality than this world compounded of one day after another, one year after another. I’ve come to believe that there are many strata of our being that simply don’t fit within the common powers of perception.  Then, perhaps in the natural sequence of perceptual progression, all but a few enlightened beings have yet to awaken to that level of experience. Either way, I’ve come to the conclusion that we have deep roots extending both above and below all known definitions of being human.

Like snowflakes, each being has a unique design while still following its archetypal pattern. This is the essence of creation in motion, and with it the inevitability of destruction for each individual expression of that greater pattern. We naively believe we are autonomous beings that belong only to ourselves. Yet, we are more like a nerve ending of the collective human body. We carry the responses of our ancestors and make way for the experiences of our descendants but, for now, I want to find the entrance to the previously unknown layer of reality that brought me to the Black smoke Beings.

Shadow People, or Black Smoke Beings, in my experience are not truly ghosts. They may in fact be a creation of certain states of negative consciousness. Consider the possibility that we actually are literally co-creators of our world. In this proposal, these strange entities eventually take on a rudimentary consciousness as well as an independent state of being. However, they live by energy generated with negative emotions, especially fear, anger and suspicion. Although I really don’t know how they are born, or where they come from, I clearly saw them, and for a moment read their minds and recognized their influence for generations back. Their situation is secondary.  They do not have a truly independent existence but require the vibrational energy of negative human emotions for sustenance.  

I suspect that we seriously underestimate our powers and thus our responsibility as co-creators. We put god outside of ourselves and beg “him” to fix unfortunate situations or make our hopes come to fruition. Frequently, our prayers are answered, yet in a manner our ego identity fails to recognize. Most of us occasionally are aware that we may be more than our personality or the states of consciousness that we include in our ego package but we seldom extend this vague awareness beyond our habitual identity nor any hoped for improvement in that identity.

I’m not suggesting such experiences as the Black Smoke Beings are merely figments of our imagination. The power and essence of emotion is considerably underestimated. It seems to me, that emotion is a many layered creative power source. We humans are in a sense conduits of power from more than the familiar four dimensions.  In the esoteric world, there is above and below and all directions emanate from one point as powerful as an atomic reaction, the elusive now. Yet, we are also very suggestible and much of our interpretation of reality is due to unconsciously assimilated assumptions about being human, living on this planet and how reality works. Regrettably, we discard unfamiliar or socially unpopular states of perception automatically and habitually, before they creep all the way to the remote borders of consciousness.  This leaves our neglected powers stalking in the dark woods outside our seemingly safe doors.

Consider the possibility, that there are powers that would prefer that we never awaken to our co-creative powers. The lower limits of consciousness often are sustained by traditional Religions in contrast to a less culturally biased spirituality. Now consider that religion is only one of many reality factories. For instance, Scientific Materialism is the official orthodoxy of this time in history.

During the time that I encountered the Black Smoke Beings, I also experienced strange phenomena in the form of large pale yellow flying insects similar to dragonflies circling my living room. I could see them even though I couldn’t open my eyes or move. Later black snakes ascended between the cracks in the wooden floor of my old adobe. I know this comes off as literally crazy stuff, but it never affected my ordinary world, the so-called world of socially agreed upon reality.  Interestingly, my cats also saw these entities, watched with fascination and curiosity but did not behave as if threatened.

As odd as it may sound, I recognized these events as messages from forgotten dimensions and guides to powers I hadn’t encountered before. I also suspected witchcraft for some of these experiences. There are many so I won’t attempt to explain all, but I was living in psychically close contact with a medicine man from the Pueblo while naively attempting to help his rebellious son understand the importance of his own path to medicine. It is important to keep in mind that when relating to any other dimensional consciousness there is both light and dark. There are those who help us attain a more comprehensive consciousness in contrast to  those who intend to scare us into submission or get rid of us. To obscure matters, the dark types often deceptively present themselves as helpful or neutral.

As a working concept, I have come to see this part of my personal history as an opening to a larger viewpoint. I will compare it to viewing one’s life and environment from the highest hill in the neighborhood. There are always going to be taller hills, then mountains, and eventually the limitless space above all mountains, but it’s best to take on larger realities in steps. I no longer consider it my business to impress others with the importance of fulfilling their “destiny.” It is impossible to know what someone’s personal tolerance to an expanded perception might be. Each being has a unique pathway through a forest of distortions. At an age when many people consider their life’s work complete, I am barely identifying the obstructions to my journey up the next mountain. I believe this is the weakness that made me vulnerable to “psychic attack.”  It was not a bad thing. When I acknowledge that there is both dark and light as we encounter new dimensions, I want to make it clear that they are working in tandem. It’s not about judging the experience one over the other.

I believe that the greatest weakness we have as a society in this time / space, is the belief that one can make great strides in one direction without activating its counter direction. Have you noticed that great breakthroughs in medicine within a few years are countered with the negative side effects and frequently stimulate the evolution of a more powerful virus?

Last night I watched a documentary on nuclear power. It is a solution to many environmental problems and to the eventual cessation of the use of fossil fuels altogether, but no one knows how safely to dispose of nuclear waste and it wasn’t considered in that original elation of discovery. In 20,000 years will disposal instructions still be decipherable by our descendants.  Even as individuals, we often solve a problem, sigh with relief and satisfaction and then discover a bit later that we have unleashed a greater problem.  Alas, the evolution of our world seems to exist under the tragic tutelage of pain heartache and destruction.

Now, I have reached the edge of a mental precipice that is too sheer to descend and too wide to jump in my present mental capacity.  I think I’ll make some brownies because I have a chocolate craving for the second day in a row. I need to restore a simple earthly bond.